I was known as a “All Star” back in my glory days in High School. But baby, those days are long and gone and now being in my 40’s your body changes ALOT! So I decided to get back into the habit and as they say in Yoga, it takes 21 days to start/ create a new habit. Plus I picked up a job that will put me in the public eyes for a couple of weeks and it’s a paid modeling gig and I need the money for my New Chapter ahead that I will like to begin with my Baby Cakes (an actual person, my fiancé).
I was looking around my apartment to see if I have the resources in my own home to achieve my success to getting back to being fit and comfortable in my own skin again and of course I do! Now I just need to stop making the excuses to get there.
I was a fitness model, athlete and yoga instructor so I know I have the knowledge to reach my fitness goals, I just need to get my butt up! So here is my list of things I picked up so now I do need to let you know “Disclosure: Links contain affiliates. As an Amazon Associate I earn from qualifying purchases. When you buy through one of our links we may receive a commission. This is at no cost to you. Thank you for supporting Intuitive Yoga Momma and allowing us to continue to bring you valuable content.”
Back to my list of what I already purchased and use from Amazon.
By far the Sweet Sweat Waist Trimmer is my favorite waist trimmer I have ever used. It comes with thermal gel to put on to help increase the use which was a cool bonus so you can try out to purchase later down the road. https://amzn.to/3LGgb35
I love love love my Beats Fit Pro, I do not leave the house without them. I go walking during my lunches and breaks at work and the noise cancelling function helps me ignore my coworkers by not being able to hear them while I go about my business. ( I have no chill). https://amzn.to/3ZAVb3r
Manduka PRO yoga Mat– Premium 6mm Thick Mat, High Performance Grip, Ultra Dense Cushioning for Support and Stability in Yoga, Pilates, Gym and Any General Fitness. This yoga mat description is a mouth full! However I own this mat due to being a Yoga Teacher as a side hustle. I like it because of the extra cushioning for my joints, I blew out one knee in cheerleading and the other in college volleyball. I try to do yoga movement everyday, even if you only get in 5 to 10 minutes it helps. https://amzn.to/3rE0jY2
I have this exact Fitbit Inspire 3 Health & Fitness Tracker. It has a Stress Management, Workout Intensity, Sleep Tracker, 24/7 Heart Rate and etc. I like the quick setting function and what I love the most, base on my movements it can pick up if I’m dancing and swimmer and records movement under that exercise tracker. https://amzn.to/3tcOMQ7
If you are reviewing this for an idea of how to start you fitness journey and merchandise to use, please ask away. The products listed on this page have 4 stars plus reviews. I wish you all the best on your fitness journey and cant wait to see the results of my own.
First I do need to give a disclaimer : Disclosure: Links contain affiliates. As an Amazon Associate I earn from qualifying purchases. When you buy through one of our links we will receive a commission. This is at no cost to you. Thank you for supporting Intuitive Yoga Momma and allowing us to continue to bring you valuable content.
I am noooo spring chicken, I am actually 44 year old engaged woman with a 9 year old son that will be 30 in December (he will be 10 but think he is grown). In the past 2 months I started this whole reinventing myself journey, since there are a lot of up and coming changes which I am actually very excited for and look forward to starting that new chapter with my Wasband (I am remarrying my second husband, I will save that blog for another day). However I am still working on healing my childhood traumas that cause my present day triggers. Any who, one day I was really going through it and when I finally took the time and looked at myself in the mirror, I realized how much I have neglected myself. How in the hell am I promoting self love and I am not even practicing what I teach?! I know right, the audacity! I know what end results I wanted but didn’t know how to start to get there. So I hopped my uneagered ass on my phone and begin to start watching this App I just downloaded call ” TikTok”! lol I told y’all I’m old! lol
I started to come across these individuals that was selling a French product call Typology! I did the quiz while doing a very bad French accent while reading through it and I was told by their site that (in my words) In order to get the skin of your dreams and this product in these pretty bottles you have to pay $200.00 and shipping was free! The free shipping part almost made me do some bald head girl stuff like use my rent money for this product with a child to take care of. So I contacted the Wasband and he is Irish like from Ireland Irish, he talks funny and everything. I understood every other word the told me when he said “You don’t need the French stuff”. I even threw in “but it’s vegan!” to a man that eats meat and potatoes (side eye) .
I went on my way to see, like really see what this stuff I really really wanted but I still have single mom money. I came across and essential oil I use to use on called Art Naturals Cold Press Rose Hip Oil and it was expensive and it did was it was intended to do and even have to this day every one I work with in the office uses this oil at night as a apart of their skin care regiment for my friends that are still having babies and dealing with melasma (the mask of pregnancy). You will think we went through enough after bring in a whole human being into the world!
When I clicked on there other products I came across the ArtNaturals Anti Aging Set but the bottles was being sold individually for $12.99 so I paid $38.97 plus tax which is better then paying $200.00 and I am glad I did, because baby this product has exceeded my skin care goals expectations talk about a complete transformation from looking dull, gray and tired to twerking (I can’t twerk to save my life). So with the face serums I started a new skin care regiment and also learn alot about the other environments we don’t think of that we should also protect our skins from.
Here is the things I use as my daily AM and PM skin care regiment.
1: Evridwear Exfoliating Glove for both the men and women, Dual Texture Bath Body Scrub Gloves Dead Skin Cell Remover.
The Evridwear Exfoliating Glove. You can also use an exfoliating pad. I like to use the Glove on my face and body (no I don’t use the same glove on my face that I use on my body) because I want to make sure I got everywhere my fingers and hands can reach. Your skin being the largest organ on your body and sheds dead skin daily. I use the gloves to prevent dead skin build up so my skin can keep its renewed glow ( yes I glow now). https://amzn.to/48uYsFB
2: CeraVe Foaming Facial Cleanser Daily Face Wash for Oily Skin with Hyaluronic Acid, Ceramides and Niacinamide “Fragrance Free Paraben Free”
I originally purchase the CerVe face wash for my son in dry skin when I started to teach him and hygiene and skin care routines as well, I figured its better to teach early then later however the CerVe Dry Skin cleanser is more like a cream which makes since to me because it is suppose to hydrate. He also uses his with his little green exfoliate glove in the morning and at night along with the AM and PM moisturizers. Normal to Dry: https://amzn.to/3PONr9V ; Normal to Oily: https://amzn.to/3t5my9T
3: ArtNaturals Anti Aging Set with Vitamin C Retinol and Hyaluronic Acid Serum for Anti Wrinkle and Dark Circle Remover
ArtNaturals Anti Aging Serum SET! At this current moment/time as the production of this article it has a Deal for $12.34 but don’t know how long the Deal is going to last but when you put them into you cart or save for later or if you have a Echo Dot, Alexa will let you know of the items in your cart and save for later list goes on sale or if the price as been reduced. The Vitamin C you use in the morning and the Retinol you use at night. These are the game changers to help me reach my skin care goals to the point I am so comfortable with my skin I barely use make up. I do use a CC Cream with a SPF 15 from Mary Kay if I do anything with makeup but nothing heavy. I just love the natural look of my skin now. https://amzn.to/3LyvECm
4: CeraVe AM Facial Moisturizing Lotion SPF 30 and CerVe PM Facial Moisturizing Lotion Night Cream with Hyaluronic Acid and Niacinamide Ultra-Lightweight both are Oil Free.
CeraVe AM Facial Moisturizing Lotion SPF 30. Day time moisturizer should always have SPF in it not only to protect you from UV rays however working in a office the lights inside the office can also cause damage to you skin so add SPF to you daytime moisturizer for that extra protection. https://amzn.to/3RtSFKB
CerVe PM Facial Moisturizing Lotion Night Cream with Hyaluronic Acid and Niacinamide Ultra-Lightweight help you stay hydrated but also not heavy so while you sleep you won’t have that extra heat. https://amzn.to/3rohEEk
These are my NEW skin care routines I started after my 44th Birthday, just two months ago. I went in at first not to expect any changes because I was late to the game of skin care and I am so glad I did. I was coming out of my heaviest moments in depression and I read that practicing self care help to have more good days then bad days. It has help in some ways that I care about how my skin looks. To this day I am working through the process of getting my teeth fixed because of anorexia disorder and pregnancy took a toll on my body, teeth and over all health. I had my son when I was 33 years old, my son was only conceived that year because I had a good year of controlling my eating disorder which allow me to be fertile to receive my blessing. Again on another blog. I too am a spiritual being having a human experience. With all that has happened in my life the healing process is everything!
Thank you for reading, stay bless message me if you have a question for ANYTHING! It doesn’t even have to pertain to my blog post. I understand that people feel alone and just need to be heard.
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Autumn Season is here and it is time to decorate!
Fall season is my absolute favorite! Why, I have absolutely no idea why! I have just been obsessed with this season since I was a small child. I don’t know if its the colors, the coolness that comes into the air, the pumpkin spice everything! Yes, I love love love pumpkin spice muffins, bread, coffees, tea, cakes donuts and etc. ! Like, what’s not to like?! Or it could be the fall fashions, I do heart me a cute charming chunky sweaters with a matching coffee mug to hold and look cute with and don’t get me started with the boots.
Another thing I love to do is decorate. I like to deck out my home front porch, balcony, dining area and all of the windows with my sons fall crafts. I might as well take advance of free art before he out grows our love for arts and crafts of our shared seasons.
Here is a list of Fall Décors to get started into the season’s spirit of Autumn! I am not to much of a DIY person but your girl can shop however if something comes across that I really want to try in that niche, I will give it a shot and share my experience.
1: 24in Artificial Fall Front Door Wreath with Wind Chimes and String Lights
Dioty 24inch Artificial Door Wreath a door wreath can set the tone on how you decorate your front door area. With the string lights on the wreath can also illuminate you entry way walk up and front door key hole. https://amzn.to/3PBsdMC Don’t forget your wreath hook!
2. Buffalo Plaid Outdoor Rugs For Fall Front Door
Bottalive Buffalo Plaid Outdoor Rug can bring some contrast to your front door to tie your decoratives together. https://amzn.to/3PvuMPV
4. Hello Sign Welcome Sign for Front Porch Standing
The JYKCUL “Hello Fall” Welcome Sign for the Front Porch helps bring to the aesthetic of creating a warm and welcoming front porch. https://amzn.to/48rPfxR
5. Artificial Flowers Outdoor Plastic Plants- 12 Bundles Outside Face Mums Fake Greenery
THE AXYLEX STORE artificial Flowers outdoor plastic plants ( fake mums). I use real mums in the Fall season to put into my DIY planter I made during quarantine that I use year around. If you like to save money and do a one time purchase and don’t have to worry about throwing out dead flowers and repurchasing mums to replant them, this would be a great option of one and your done for repeat seasonal use. https://amzn.to/3EQRBZw
6. Orange Artificial Pumpkins for Fall Decorating
Armag 8 pcs Assorted Sizes Harvest Orange Artificial Pumpkins for Fall Decorations. The pumpkins are also a nice touch to displaying you fall festive side for your front porch décor. https://amzn.to/3LySXfe
These are a few of my go too on giving my front entrance and dash of Autumn Season. I also do a Winter, Spring and Summer as well and I would be happy to share the décor I will use when those season come.
Thank you,
Leilani Duffins xoxo
My son posing in front of our door when I first started getting into home décor 3 years ago!
How many times can you have a fresh start? Is there a limitation for new beginnings?
In the Tarot Card community we have cycles and once you graduate your cycle by doing the work on your shadow side and learning the lessons that needed to be learned we get “The Wheel” and not that dreadful Tower Card. Well depending on what the Tower is paired with, there can be good Towers and the one that I don’t like the not so good one because there has been many times I had to repeat my cycles because I didn’t learn my lesson and the fucked around and find out and repeat those grades until I did my homework and evolved.
Yes, I am a Golden Child, and yes I am also a born psychic intuitive that was blessed with so many gifts however baby, I sometimes can’t find my keys in the morning or forget where I left my phone when I am actually speaking to my mother on it while looking for my phone! To sum it all up I am still Human!
I haven’t posted since October of 2022 because I just needed to just take a huge step back, reflect and reevaluate and this time ask question about everything! I began that process by taking out several pages of construction paper and creating a “Timeline” and creating a method to figure out what happened in my past to make become who I am at this very moment ?! What did I do wrong to deserve the way how I feel and why do I feel this way about myself? My healing journey started with series and series of questions of “Why?”.
While working through this timeline method I created for myself, I learned about myself that I have childhood trauma, like alot of it! I locked up a part of me just to mentally survive the chaos, neglect and isolation I was left in only because I existed. Starting my life from childhood of just surviving just to exist in a world that I felt I had no part in because of the isolation, I didn’t know how to start, so I seek out a mental health professional to help me create a action plan so I can become that person I feel I deserve to be and I know its going to be one hell of a road trip.
I would like to share my experience of my healing journey, along with the journey of the new adventures that is to come and throw in some extra stuff here and there. My experiences could either help or encourage someone into making a brave decision, or just make a person know they are not alone and other people share those same problems and experience that they can relate too.
I am Intuitive Yoga Momma, well not as much yoga I would like to get in but Intuitive Momma I will never escape. I am looking forward to sharing even though I know I have a few page of swords out there low key spying! Yeah I know you are, I can feel your energy in my cards!
Living in this era of technology and “social media” has made it comfortable for people to be assholes and bullies.
Well I don’t tolerate both assholes or bullies, I just don’t allow myself to be bothered. I do have individuals that make attempts to find my buttons to push however those same individuals just make asses of themselves when I don’t react. They assume my non reaction is an act but really I am unbothered because I don’t care and I made a conscious decision to not invest my energy into the narrative they create.
I see and know individuals that get into screaming matches over politics and the right way to raise children until they are damn in a fist fight and can’t wrap my mind around how much time and energy is wasted because no one won and either party has made an inch of growth and due to the ego being in the way unable to see the lesson.
What I will invest in is water and minding my business. It’s free and leave you in the the emotional state of being content.
Being that I occasionally share whatever random is on my mind and experiences on here. Some individuals become triggered. If you are triggered by what I say, take that as a hint and try to understand why you feel triggered. When a person is triggered by someone it’s something that should be looked into and worked on to start healing that trigger.
If I have ever triggered you, you are very welcome and I wish you a beautiful journey on your path of healing!
When does one come to the realization that it’s to late to make amends? You lost one.
You have a real one there rooting for you and praying for your safety as you are out in the world being reckless and at the same time gaslighting the one person who sees you and loves you for who you are until that person reaches their limitations of the tomfoolery and give it all to God, now you want to clear up your act after a decision has been made to let go and God.
Why do people only want to try to fix things after they have taken someone for granted? God present you with a beautiful gift of unconditional love and to feel at home with the person that was born to love you! After gifted such a beautiful gift from God, you make a conscious decision to take more that was to much to chew. Now who’s choking?
Some people don’t realize when they ruin a good thing it was the universe testing you to see if you are ready for a new cycle/ beginning full of abundance and you shit it for another karmic lesson that was the same as the previous 50 before that.
When is enough, enough? If you have that special someone or special something in your life and think about taking it for grant for something temporary, remember that we are always being tested. Don’t let your eyes get to big for your stomach instead be grateful for what you have in the right now and be patient because everything moves in divine timing, not yours.
About to start a new day and already fucked up! 😩😩😩😩😩😩
Namaste, usually when I wake up in the morning after telling Alexis to stop alarm, I would lay there for a couple of minutes to set my tone and think how I want to start day and intentions.
Today was different. I didn’t want to do that. Instead I asked myself a question that created and set me in a new path. My question to myself “Are you proud of yourself and where you are?”.
Talk about Pandora’s box and the damn lid I just misplaced and can’t find! I can’t undo what I have just done! Damn it now I must move onward and forward to this new road I have never traveled before.
I am proud of what I have already done and accomplished however their are those other things that I have been afraid to do because I am afraid of taking risk while being responsible for my little person (my son) but how am I supposed to lead by example when I allow my fears of failing causing me to have limitations. So I am not proud of myself because I haven’t yet gave it my all, but I’m about too!
If I fall flat on my face, I will have to know I will always be okay without support from those that pretend to care and learn from the lessons that failure has taught me to readjust and make corrections to try again.
You will never know if you can succeed until you try. Those lessons in failing and set you up with new way to success. So wish me luck!
We go through our entire life being taught we need to be in co-dependent relationships to feel safe, to feel complete, to feel whole, to feel worthy! Until life lessons teaches you, it is all about you the hard way and those damn lessons can be timely and very costly!
If life came with an instructional manual, I would have done more with my time, invested my energy in the right place and had some serious coins in my bank account but I am a spiritual being having a human experience just like everyone else living their life times.
We are taught that we need saving from ourselves so instead of getting to know who we are and learn our likes and dislikes, we put our wants and needs aside and look for something to find it in us in a connection. After saying it out loud makes me question my own intelligence but I wanted so badly to be loved unconditionally that I too lost site of my purpose and very existence.
No one is meant to save you, no one else can ever love you the way you love yourself! What I learned from self care is when you practice it, people are watching and witnessing your glow and as they watch, they are learning how to love you based on the way you love yourself!
So save yourself already and level up, glow up! I promise you will not regret your new shine as you radiant
I use to know what I want . Now today after deep thought after I attempted to create a flow chart of creating an plan to accomplish the wants and needs in life. When I was using this flow chart that met small goals the lead to bigger goals to later reach and achieve the over all outcome, I became lacking to even create a destination for my over all outcome to of my small achievements that lead to a bigger picture. How am I suppose to inspire people to conspire their greatest desires in life and achieve greatest when I don’t know what the fuck I want my damn self ?!
I set myself up for failure when I was being a dummy and set my ways on the way I was conditioned to live my life after I lost my innocence. I am a Healer, I’m psychic af and I have this great connection and understanding of the universe but after living my life for so long with an idea of having choice and free will, that idea disappeared and vanished when I was tested and challenged thought the trials and tribulations for the divine plan and soul contracts that needed to be fulfilled that left me hurt, alone and even more confused and frustrated.
Why did this all happen. I was to happy go lucky, a doormat, nice and optimistic and given. I wasn’t receiving and people just took for me like a thief in the night. I needed to be taught a lesson in creating boundaries. Who was to better to teach me those lessons other then the one person in my life that was created to trigger me into ascension but having a traumatic experience by being broken. Now I don’t recognize myself.
I can see people’s bull shit now when they enter a room, and the low vibrational ones I can feel them feeling threaten by just glancing at them. Some are even brave to come test me and I shut it down before they fix their mouths to say something. Being extra intuitive is great and all, as much as I enjoy zoning out in the middle of a conversation because these spiritual downloads are so intense. I do know what to do with it!
I get people that will tell me ” Oh, how I wish I had your gifts!” but they are not aware of the cons that comes with being an intuitive individual. I guess I will sleep when I’m dead! I know this post is just a rant and nothing inspiring is being learned from this except “Be careful what you wish for!” and appreciate your blessings and free will because I learned the hard way, some of us is living this lifetime because of a contract and when the Universe say it is time, fuck whatever you was doing, you are called by the Universe, then you drop everything and put in that work. As much as I love having the conversations with people that only exist in the 3D of “That’s not True!”. I will say this, until you level up, shut the fuck up talking to me! Periodt
Now that I have fulfilled a partial of this contract, the next is this spirit child is waiting for me to accept my Twin Flame back into my life to conceive and bring him into this lifetime (eyeroll). See the problem with this is, I don’t see anything long-term with my twin flame because he has been consistent with proving he is short term and I am not interested in being a two time single Mom. So I will do what I want and will see if the Universe will intervene again. For now, it’s my body, my choice.
I have always been a loving caring nurturing person. A giver and never expected to receive in return but just some time and attention to build a emotional connection on. I’m a true cancer ♋️ to the heart.
I understand people get busy and things come up but we live in the times when people won’t communicate with you anymore and will just ghost you and come back later without a explanation and expect you not to ask questions when they return.
I know now that is emotional manipulation and when they try to tell you, “you are crazy for feeling offended or disrespected” for them ghosting you and then turns around to love bomb you that right there my friend is trauma bonding to make you stuck and keep you on pause for fake love and love that will never be reciprocated. A love connection that will never move forward, no balance or final outcome. You will be left in a state of confusion with no answers.
The best thing you can do is believe if that person is hot and cold, believe that person is cold. Save yourself, save your time, save you heart and mental well being and just walk away. Don’t argue, just let go and let god. Know that the best revenge is walking away to move on to find your own happiness from within.
Please don’t be hard on yourself, talk to someone you trust about it. It an embarrassing situation to be in but also know the person that played you, at the end played their self and will get their karma.
When love is not reciprocate, you tend to run out of love for that person, disconnect and become cold, then you see them for what they are. That’s when realization hits you, I Love the Wrong Person. This person was never deserving of my love and never had any intentions to do the right things and do right by me.
Trust your intuition, this person is going to try to make you doubt yourself and not trust yourself to keep control to continue to use you as their supplier.
You are worthy of being loved unconditionally. Just let go and that unconditional love will be rewarded to you for completing a karmic cycle.
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