Easter 2017 

Easter is one of my favorite holidays! With my little boy growing up and is now beginning to understand celebrations of holidays to be fun, eventful and gift given. 

I make journals for him as our days grow and teach him the real meaning behind our holidays but if Jaxon want to be a Christian later in life, I will support his decision and respect his beliefs however I will not raise my son with lies as I was. 

For now we celebrate the Easter traditions of the Scandinavian spring goddess, the new clothes out of respect for her, the hate that represents fertility, the decorated eggs that magically brought happiness, good health, prosperity and protection and the sun rise service, of the ancient sun worshippers in vernal equinox welcome the sun to bring new life in every thing that grows! 

These our the forgotten faiths of the forgotten ancestors that have pave a way for us and is somehow still celebrated but the real meaning behind it was force to be forgotten. 

I am not a religious person but I am a spiritual being that have had thousands of years of human experiences. I won’t never forget the birth of the beliefs people celebrates today. 

Enjoy the pictures! 

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Proud Psychic Momma 

My fearless son Jaxon. I refer to him as my fearless one because he manages to do things age the age of three that I was always afraid to do as an adult, embraced and take control. 

When I was pregnant with Jaxon, I was over the top excited and couldn’t wait to welcome him into this world but at the same time I was afraid he would be different like me and even more afraid that I will mess him up. 

Being born “gifted”, with normal closed mind parents and family members is challenging. My childhood was very challenging. I didn’t have any support and I was called crazy to the point in one moment in my life, I try to get a spektic psychiatrist to have me committed. I opened her mind to a world that her science taught her people like me don’t and shouldn’t exist because we can’t be proven. Last time I checked, people that specialize in theories that can’t be proven is called genius but we are pegged as crazy because science can’t figure us out? 

My little boy have a support system and because of the encouragement and support he receives from his other gifted family members. I heard him from the other room condemning spirits and other worldly( scary as shit) entities out of his space with great authority in his tone! All I can do was put my hands over my heart and release the emotions that swelled to my eyes and just like that he went back to playing like this is his everyday normal. 

I was through the roof scared at his age and would hide underneath the covers. Him? It’s a different story. He will still come tell me someone is in his room and my first instance is to run with energy ready and pouring through my pours to put up barriers but now, I force myself to stay seated and instruct him to tell them to leave because that is your room and if you don’t want any one to be in your room, you command, don’t ask tell to leave. Boy did he run with it! I couldn’t be prouder. My three year old have mastered what some psychic adults are trying to learn today without fear. 

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From lost to new insight 

On January 21th of this year I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks. 

I started this new year optimistic with the thought and idea of a beautiful new blessing after a storm and I lost my baby. 

Four week prior too her lost, I felt assured and worry free after seeing her there and hearing her heart beat. I relaxed and allowed myself to become excited. However earlier during the week of the miscarriage my little darling came to me and I felt heat in my womb and felt the energy that resided within leave my body. 

She told me her name was Alana and she couldn’t be born in this vessel because the life she is purposes for wouldn’t succeed in the body that was growing inside of me. In other words her life would be short lived due to a disease that would have shorted her lifetime. 

I understood but it still hurt like hell. She was a life with a life force. Even with having a few days to mentally prepare myself, I still took her leaving me hard. It just goes to show that even being a born psychic medium with the abilities to heal, I still suffer and endure what everyone else experiences in life because I too am a spiritual being having a human experience. 

For all the Mother’s out there that have had miscarriages my heart goes out to you and just know it’s going to be okay. It’s not silly that the lost follows heart on your heart after so many years has past. It was a lost of a love one, you lost your baby and that child was a life that existed. No matter how far along you was it was still a lost of life as hope and possibilities. 

I share this with you only because I felt ashamed and like I failed and many thoughts have passed my mind of “if I had done something different because it was something that was out of my control. Things in life will happen that will be out of your control but don’t focus on the things you can’t control but know your limitations and worry about things you do have control of. 

I couldn’t bare the thought of discarding her remains as medical waste so instead I placed her in a container in this Peace Lilly Plant ( that has been repotted) as a resting place. 

I love you, thank you and namaste 

Ending of 2016 

We ended 2016 celebrating my little boys 3rd Birthday and throwing him an amazing party in Scottsdale, AZ McCormick-Stillman Railroad Park. Of course my little guy and his guest had an wonderful times with activities, carrousel and train rides around the park. 

Ending it with a birthday song with a Thomas the Train cake, he may not remember it however it was priceless for his father and I to put another memory into our memory bank of things to cherish and a story to tell later. 

Zachary and I are blessed. Together we brought a strong willed brilliant little boy into this world, whos only purpose in life at this moment is to be loved unconditionally, to laugh, learn, grow and be nurtured. 

We are not a family perfect family. I don’t believe there is a such thing. What I do believe in is self perfection and growth. We are learning everyday in our lives. We just have to be willing to accept that lesson we are learning and not take each other for granted. 

Our little boy is happy and healthy, and we have to keep in mind that even though he is three years old, he is learning the value of love and family as we speak. Our little ones are born observers. Their first few years in life, we are laying down the foundation for them in life so they can chose the material they need to build with. 

If you have a growing family and the road seems to be a little bumpy. Just take a step back and breathe, look at your road map and see where the road you choose s leading you. If it’s not the road you wish to be on, then sit down with your partner and make a choice to be on the same page to take that road together and find a way to communicate. 

I am happy to be sharing my son’s third birthday pictures. There was a moment where this family was almost no more but we celebrated another year as one. It’s not just about our son. It’s about all of us and being content. 

Thank you 

Our normal isn’t their normal 

I have a little brilliant little two almost three year old boy and he can be both frightening and amazing. 

When it comes to bed time it’s hard for him to just stay put and go to sleep just like ever other “two year old”.  We have our terrible twos however it’s different then most people only because with my son being such a strong empath at two he can pick up your thoughts and emotions and play out your frustration like it is his own. 

So this Pyschic Momma have to mediate and find a neutral ground and center myself and block him out so his tantrums don’t escalate. 

So how do I play this out for his day care? I get behavioral reports because they are all being played by a two year old and if they get overwhelmed he will stand his ground and ready himself for a fight or they get frustrated he will act out their frustrations like they are his own. 

Should I tell his teacher? Or shall I allow them to find a way to figure it out on their own with how to deal with an indigo child while not knowing he is an indigo? 

I know it sounds mean. I sit here a read the Fresh Mommy Blog which I love when the lady Tabitha looks and seems so put together, with her prefect home and what looks like well mannered normal children and they all look so happy! Yes the grass does look greener on the other side however a girl can fantasize! Lol 

We are what we are. My son plays with my dog Cocoa who passed July 2007 and he absolutely adore her. Now how many Moms can say “my son plays with my dead dog and have conversations with my grand parents, his great grand parents and his Great-Great Grandmother! Now that he can speak clearer we play the name game, called name that spirit and he does. The sound may be off but it’s close enough to know who just entered the room. 

Jaxon can see spirits however I stop when I was 12 and it was for my own good however I can feel them when they  enter the room, see shadows and see them from my minds eye and sometimes hear them like any other person in a dense form. 

I will ask for guidance from my spirit guides on what this momma should do.  Here’s to visions! 

Thank you 

My Worth as a Woman

I am just like any other woman who has her shit together however that still has a void. A void, yes I said it. I am a single mother as it says in my title somewhere in Intuitive Yoga Momma however I still feel incomplete.

I am currently in a so call relationship with my son’s father however it is so-called and you don’t have to be psychic to see that it is not a relationship that will last to be “til death do us part!” Even as much as I love my son’s father I just wish he would learn to love himself unconditionally so he could understand the meaning of self-worth so he could understand the worth of another. That makes sense to me!

I have been through a lot in the two years he was absent from mine and my son’s life, I’m actually putting it lightly. He walked out on us not once but twice and behaves in such a manner like he is owed something for doing nothing, ungrateful, unappreciative and an ass. I am not perfect and I have flaws. My biggest flaw would be my ability to forgive so easily, but I also like to see it as my strength. I forgive my son’s father so easily because I needed not to speak ill of his father and have ill thoughts that could ruin my ability to be happy and grow in other relationships (not meaning romantically). I didn’t do it for my son, I did it for myself.

I needed to feel weight less without the other crap tagging along trying to make me a screwed up person so I could raise my baby boy with Metta(loving, kindness) in his life. I needed to have the best relationship with myself so I can teach my son and set a positive example of self-love and self-worth. Honoring the light within my self so I could honor it and see it in others.

At the end I have to know my worth and knowing my worth will be the reason of ending a relationship with a man who I love but was to lazy to even try to really love us back because he was to busy self loathing and feeling sorry for himself. just tying this out and reading this breaks my heart slowly because the truth is out. I am in love with a man who doesn’t know my worth as a woman and as the Mother of his son. I don’t think he ever will.

People have asked me as a psychic how could I allow myself to be in a situation that will come to end like this. We don’t know and see everything. Our lives play out just like everyone else but that one day when spirit gives you the sneak peek  of the end, all you can do is brace yourself and prepare of the end of impact.

Thank you for reading

Namaste

 

 

Astral Traveling Toddler 

As a Mom I have my days, as a Mom with “soul abilities” (psychic) I have my challenges.

My two year old is now yelling at spirits to go away when he is being bother and other beings that look like monsters so now he is afraid of the dark when before he only wanted it pitch dark. Now this week he is astral traveling just around the apartment thank God! 

My 2 yr old is astral traveling around the apartment at night! I actually assumed I wouldn’t have to deal with this until he was older so now I worry about other unknown forces that could be crossing the veil just to get to him. 

How I can tell from astral traveling Jaxon and solid form Jaxon is, astral traveling Jaxon only wears a diaper or most times he is nude but last night I was too tried to tell what was going on. 

I woke up around 2am and saw my son sitting up on the sofa, so I walk over to him and teach my arms out to him to pick him up and carry him back to bed to only reach out my arms and he disappears! 

I just stood there and stared at the spot where he was just sitting and then realized that he was only in a diaper when I know I dressed him in his baseball pajamas. I walked over to his bedroom door and turned on the hall light and saw he was fully clothed in his little toddler bed holding on tight to his stuffed giraffe looking so adorable. 


Now now I make sure I take the extra step before bedtime to Reiki his room and say a prayer of protection and advised his guides to protect him by all means as he rest and travels since that is their jobs but the Mother side of me still worry. 

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